I'm at work having a freshly brewed a cup of coffee and cig at my cubic. Just asked my manager if there was any work to do and he said no after pausing for few seconds.

My head feels like a Pharaonic adobe... You know...the ones they used to build the pyrmids. I guess zyrtec has become useless as a cure for my insomnia. I had a couple of them last night, yet I couldn't sleep before 5:30 am and I woke up at 4 pm with a severe headache.

I've been smoking like train at work. I dopted this habbit lately to express I don't give a fuck attitude. My neighbor at the cubic-hood tonight is not the poet, even though he's as quite as a poet. He could be a poet, who knows.

I know that he's from southern Lebanon. As I said he rarely talks and don't bother trying to talk politics with him because he'll turn deff. He has the Hezbollah short beared and stick his face to the TV when Nasrollah appears.

I have quite a few Lebanese co-workers and they come from various backgrounds. They're very decsent for all I could say. However, after the recent Israeli war on Lebanon I knew for a fact that they are far away from being one Lebanese nation. I thought they learned their lesson from the 80's civil war, but fuckin Olmert proved me wrong.

It's intersting how religious and political identities clash with national identity. The Lebanese case is very obvious the situation in Iraq is another "good" example of this delimma.

I don't know if handing a copy of Amin Maalouf's "On Identity" book for each and every Arab citizen would make a difference. I thin it would IF they read it.

The Kuwaiti society dwelss in the same dilemma and I discovered that when I went to the US for college. Before that I lived in one of Kuwait City's suburbs where all of my freinds cane from identical religious and cultural grounds: Sunni, "7athar" Middle- upper class. I come form the very middle-class; nonethless, some of my friends are millionaires.

I wanna do a flash back to take you back to my firts encounterment with fellow Kuwaiti citezens from different backgrounds during my first few days in the US, but I'm not on the mood. Zertic did fuck my mood today. I'll stop taking any of that shit even if it means a life-long freindship with insomnia.

The flash back for next thread if I make it...